The typical first impression people tend to gather from me includes information regarding my height, attitude, vocabulary, tattoos, confidence, and overall presence. Being an almost 6-foot multi-racial woman, I am forever trying to navigate first impressions in this ever-so-judging world. Nonetheless, first impressions aren't always accurate.  ​ Those who've been closest to me over the years have always expressed that I have almost too much love to give and a painfully kind heart. Many refer to me as beautiful, intelligent, caring, and gentle. However, my loved ones will also tell you I can be loud and seemingly aggressive. I can be defensive, and trust is one of the most difficult aspects of life for me daily.  ​ Despite people's different views about me, I've always had my own personal views of myself. Whether these views were in low times of despair or high times of gratitude. I can admire my beauty, though sometimes it may appear tainted. I can visualize my intelligence, though sometimes I feel unable to retain knowledge. I feel my caring and compassionate heart burning through my chest, though sometimes it can be manipulated by the perspectives of evil and narcism. I remain confident, though some days I feel it will all get better, and others I fear nothing will change. ​ Despite all these varying thoughts, ideas, and assumptions, nobody knows what it's like to be me, except me. Similarly, nobody knows what it's like to be you, except for you! I hope to inspire every one of you with my own story and the way I allow my traumas to enable me to be a gifted writer. Growing up as a half-black and half-white young woman in an outrageously aggressive and terrifying world was a struggle in itself, and still, my fate had a few other tricks up its sleeve. Several diagnoses, both mental and physical, years of abuse, numerous lifetimes of trauma, over a decade of self-hatred, a body and brain covered in scars, and a desperate need to succeed have transformed me into the woman I am today. I realized my purpose in this life is to be the person I always needed for as many people as I can.  ​ I hope that this message reaches anyone who has survived these lifelong struggles I have, such as physical and sexual abuse, depression, anxiety, ADHD, BPD, PTSD, Gastroparesis and other incurable gastrointestinal diseases, severe joint pain from growing too fast, IED, Insomnia, narcissistic parents, manipulation, verbal abuse, and so much more. If you've experienced something I have not, I hope you read my stories, use my services, connect with me, and even share an experience if you'd like.  ​ Against all odds, I've finally found the courage to begin finding myself, and I wish the same for every beautiful human out there. I love you all! ​ Regardless, this is the real Andra 🖤